nrsyu writes :)

“You don’t look depressed!” I’ve heard this sentence too often, and have always questioned what depression is meant to look like? Depression isn’t always constant sadness and isolation, normally, it’s feeling exhausted, worthless but painting on a smile to deal with normality. Please learn to speak out when you feel depressed. Just ignore what society thinks. They may call you weak or whatever but it’s better when you let it out. It’s ok to cry, it’s ok to tell your story. Sometimes I was so depressed and unhappy with my life and myself. I’m depressed and living my best life at the same time ... I’m confused. 😅 I just Ignore the negative and embrace the positive. I think about how much my life has changed for the better so often. Fast forward to now I’ve never been happier and more proud of myself and everything I’ve accomplished.

For me happiness is not something that you have to achieve. You can still be happy while working for what you want.  I have a few things that makes me happy. One of them is a day at the pool! 😝 My journal is filled with adventures to find happiness. A lot of struggles for sure. I'm seeking for advices to be happy and to keep the positive mind.  Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own action but it has to do with the positive experience of emotions. You have to be productive to find the key.  Start finding the happiness in you and what brings you joy. For me, just enjoy every moment in your life. It could be the "happiness" that you're looking for.

In the book of my life, Finding a true love is the hardest chapter. I really want to find someone who supports me in the things that I passionate about. Someone  who respects my heart, my family and my values. I was stuck between "I don't wanna feel that type of hurt again" and "I wanna feel that type of love again." My heart has struggled a lot, it deserves time to heal. Now, It's not all about a right person and it is also about a right time. Love will come in the right time with the right person. Just wait. Remember, "If something is destined for you, never in a million years will it be for somebody else." Pssss: My ideal type of guy is someone who is older and I prefer a lil taller but as long as he isn’t shorter, everything is good because my height is 169 cm.  His height must be around 180 to 189 cm. It would be great if he got the same personality as me. 🙈

I'm so tired & drained out, there are so many mixed emotions and stress on me.I was so stressed, anxious, tired with life due to my impatience and high expectations. I always crying to myself because of disappointments. Wanting things to happen in a certain way and at a certain time. I know Life is not easy and gets tough. Preparation is a must. Pressure comes from a lack of preparation.  There's a few things that improve my life, I stop complaining and appreciate every things in my life.  I will say goodbye to the people that don't bring positive energy in me.  I will be much more productive by set routines, avoid multitasking and leave some free time in my schedule. Now I'm just living my life at my own pace and couldn't be happier. Psss : Honestly all I wanna do is stay in my room and sleep. 😜