When I am silent, I have thunder hidden inside

My silence means I am tired of fighting and now there is nothing left to fight for. My silence means I'm tired of explaining my feeling. Now, I don't have energy to explain them anymore.  I have adapted to the changes in my life and don't want to complain. I am on a self healing process and I am trying to forget everything. i'm just trying to move on gracefully with all my dignity from  unnecessary drama. 

I act like I don't care. Like nothing can hurt me. I put up a big wall of toughness and pretend that everything is fine. I don't need somebody's "affection" but in reality i think I'm just too scared. Scared not being good enough, scared of getting hurt, scared to let somebody in. Aku memilih untuk mendiamkan diri and let it go but when I've reached my limit, I don't even care anymore. I like to be silence and prefer to be alone. 

Sometimes silence can hold more meaning than words. I'm still learning the art of not replying to the fools. That's what makes me a better person. Silence is not a sign of weakness. It's the best way to comfort yourself. Dalam islam pun ajar untuk umatnya mendiamkan diri ketika marah sebab lidah manusia yang tengah marah lebih tajam daripada mata pedang. One thing, I have learned in my life silence is the key.  I'm gonna choose silence over unnecessary conflict. 

sometimes it feels better not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone.